Back to normal

So..... there have been a lot of vague updates about kel and I have enough time to finally post for everyone to follow along.

About a month ago Kel was complaining of chest/rib pain. After a few days and a prompt care visit kel went to the ER thinking he had cracked ribs. There were no cracks on his xrays but some fluid build up in his lung and abnormalties with his diaphragm were visible. He came home to rest. After the weekend he went back to the ER and xrays showed no changed so he was sent home until his follow up appointment later in the week. After 4days of pain and immobility he had his follow up. That is when he was admitted.

Then the hospital sent him to ct scan and during the scan a chest tube was put in immediately and over a liter was drained right there. He had a very painful chest tube for a week to suction out all the fluid. It was determined that he had some how developed a wierd strand of pneumonia that led to fluid build up in the lung. The fluid was pushing on his lungs, ribs and most of his diaphragm was paralyzed. Over the week at home before it was drained all the pressure led to some complications that made it impossible to drain the remaining fluid from his lung.

After one week of a chest tube we had to talk either surgery to remove all the infection and infected area or we could try at home iv antbiotics for 4-6 weeks to help heal the issues and minimize surgical needs. So kel was sent home and I took over his care for a week.

He started off great but after the first few days started declining and fevers were retuning. So on day 8 at home his fever spiked and he was brought back to the hospital. He was readmitted and we once again discussed surgery to remove all aftected areas of the lung and surrounding areas.

Another chest tube was put in and scans showed the fluid had moved around but was regnerating due to the pneumonia infection. The placement plus accumulated scar tissue have had it impossible for antibiotics to get in and kill the bacteria. The hope was that the chest tube #2 would drain out all the ick.

It didnt. After 5 days of heavy meds and suction nothing new had come out. Scans showed that fluid was rebuilding and pneumonia wasnt changing. At this point it has been a whole month of battles for him and his body just cant fight back. We have been seeing multiple specialists for the pneumonia and more for his lungs plus surgical consultation.

The placement of everything (immediately between his lobes on his left lung) make it tricky. For a non lung surgeon there is severe risk of having to remove one or both lobes. So we were aksed if moving to st. Louis to see a top rated lung surgeon was an option. There is really No other way to get everything out. So kel has been transfered to st. Louis for surgery. The sooner it is done the less likely any of his lung will be removed.

There are a lot of unknowns at this point. Liquid obscures xrays and makes it impossible to know for sure what is up. So surgery could go super well and be an easy removal of all the scar tissue and drainage of the infection, but there could be so much more than we can see. The goal is to keep his lung in tact and fully functioning.

So, I am in st. Louis staying with my little sister to be with kel. Cecelia is being taken care of by my big sister and mom. My other sister is watching our house.  I am so blessed that through all of this my family has helped me and kels family has been here to help him.

I know there are so many people who want to help. It is tricky because we can not accept meals due to Cecelia's allergies. She has to have everything prepped with special butter and oils and cant risk any sort of cross contamination. 

However kel and I are in a wierd spot. Up until this week I have been able to work full time and handle that, but he hasnt been able to work in over a month. Now I am on a leave to be with him in st. Louis until he is recovering well enough. we are losing all our immediate income. Throw in gas to and from st. Louis and hospitals plus food and the things are tight.

If there Is anything people would like to help with (gas, groceries, target runs) gift cards would be a tremendous blessing and relief for us. My sister and parents are the ones to talk to while I am in st louis. Luckily we have had tremendous luck with Cecelia eating out at Meatheads, monicals, and Olive Garden... but those are the only three places she can safely eat allergy free right now. Anything, even some get well cards for kel and lots and lots of prayers,  is a huge help. We have never been in a situation like this and arent sure how to handle it. We need help in lots of little ways, mostly prayer and faith and love.

Our goal is to get kel "back to normal" in every way we can.

For all wondering, myself and baby Gianna (thats her name, Gianna Rose) are doing ok. The dr. Has helped me with ways to manage my stress. The biggest concern for us is
That i keep eating and sleeping regularly.  Ive had issues with weight loss (-35lbs) this pregnancy and that affects everything at this point for her growth and my health. But last two weeks i gained back 1 whole pound so we are headed in the right direction finally. We just have to keep me calm long enough to make it to my scheduled c-section in early oct. Labor would be dangerous and risky for both me and Gianna so we are avoiding that at all costs!

Lots of prayers and love please. We just heard that surgery is full for today and they are hoping to sneak kel on this afternoon.

For those who understand medical stuff..... this was EXTREMELY dumbed down. There is so much little details and I cant spell half of them, so please accept my appoligy for how dumbed down it is!

things are going SEW well

For Christmas i got a sewing machine. Sewing is something i have always wanted to try but never knew where to start. a few month ago i started taking mini informal lessons with a friend using her equipment. we made some amazing pillow cases for my nieces and nephews as a Christmas gift and i thought i could try out some more. I ended up getting a nice machine for Christmas and my "unofficial" new years resolution is to complete at least 52 projects (one per week) in 2014.

There are a couple of reasons Sewing is hard to get into... at least for me. first is cost. once you have the supplies and a good start it's not expensive, at least not any more than any other hobby. you also get a lot more out of it than scrap booking, but start up is a lot! since i got the machine as a gift i have been working on the bare minimums for right now. hopefully slowly my hubs and i can start to build up my sewing room, but until then i am learning with the basics.

second: time. it takes time to plan, purchase fabric, wash, dry, iron, fold, get the patterns, cut, pin, measure THEN sew. I am huge on jumping right in and just sewing, not so much the tedious work that needs to go first. this has been a great lesson for me to sit and focus on one things as well as time to get away from my daughter adn husband and do something productive, slightly theraputic and not cleaning my house.

third: there are so many ideas, where do you start?i immediately wanted to find a dress pattern on pinterest and start sewing. instead i have started with two very small things (both things i wanted anyway). These small projects each taught me something different, and i learned a ton about the whole process and things i need.

Now that i tackled my hurdles, got some supplies, found the time and used self control to help learn so i can do things right it was FINALLY time to get sewing.

First thing i did when my machine was up and running, sew two pairs of pants that had holes in the together, and sew on a button. Stupid little things i couldn't have done before but they saved me over $100 having to replace those 3 pairs of pants (at least postponed it for a few more months)! For The WIN! i feel no matter how else the 52 projects go, i have saved us money and therefore it's all worth it.

Second i made a bag for Cecelia to take to church. it's a bit big (the strap) for her and there are LOTS of reasons it looks homemade and could be improved upon, however it cost me nothing and i learned a ton.

(btw, i'd post pictures but i have not mastered my new computer yet, when i do i will put up pictures)

• for fabric i used Cecelia's old baby blanket (she has DOZENS i'll never use again) and cut it up to put it together. 
• i did not use a design, i folded and pinned it symmetrically to fit our books and needs. 
• i added pockets for her little "saint peg" dolls she takes to church, then i added a rosary pocket
• i sewed a start and sewed it on

it took about an hour total and gave me a chance to play with the different stitches and settings and thread colors and needles and get to know my machine. The bag might not look that good but i learned what i needed and all it took was a baby blanket, my machine, scissors and a few pins.

Third i made some place mats for valentines day decor around my house. they are reversible and literally the EASIEST THING TO EVER MAKE! they are the BEST starting point in my opinion adn i can't wait to make more for every season

• before yous tart you gotta pick out two coordinating fabrics. this is SUPER important because fabric and crafts stores take soem getting used to for beginners. i went to JoAnns and found what i needed then looked around. There are more supplies than you could ever hope for, but it gave me a chance to make a wishlist and price list in my head. Plus with coupons i got everything cheap! Although this was a super easy starting point, i have realized there are at least two things (a cutting mat and roller cutter) i will have to get before my next project. seems like a no brainer, but this first step of getting fabric and walking around the store is a MUST!
• cut out whatever size you want your mats to be. i made 4, so cut 4 rectangles (honestly i can't remember the measurements right now, it's late at night) of each fabric
• line them up, set your thread adn pin tehm in place
• sew all four sides together
• make sure they match up, tidy the strays up and you are all done. 

The are super cute and i'll be making more for st pattys day very soon. 

I didn't mention the first steps you need once you get your fabric before you start: wash, dry, iron, fold. Not pointless, in fact that is the most meaningful part of any sewing project. who knew! 

So i hope if there's anyone starting to sew or thinking about starting this helps! i can't wait to try my next project (already have the plan and fabric!) ad see what i can do this year! 

Going Pee Pee on the Potty

So we have begun potty training Cecelia. She is 17 months old and has been showing all the signs that she is ready and gets it (crying when she goes in her diaper, showing interest when we go on the potty, flushing the toilet, going in her diaper IN the bathroom, etc). I have received a lot of feedback from people that she is too young and i should just make life easier and wait a few more months until summer/ she is older. People tell me this like i don't know it's hard to potty train a nonverbal YOUNG and strong willed girl. They say things that make me feel like they don't trust my instincts as a mother. They piss me off and i want to slap them.

I know she is young and if i had it my way i would wait until summer when she can run around naked and get it done in 2 days! However there's more to the story than me hating changing diapers (true story it's easier than cleaning my carpet when she craps on it).

Cecelia has allergies (we all know!) and a result is SEVERE excema all over her body and especially in delicate parts, behind her knees, on her ankles, her shoulders and HER DIAPER AREA! The places don't get a lot of air flow and therefore her skin is awful! i can't count the amount of times people ask me how she got injured and scraped BEHIND HER KNEES. there's nothing i can do about it that i'm not already doing (and thanks for making me feel like an incompetent mom, lady at the mall who has NO CLUE why my daughter is covered in a rash and sores). We lotion her at least once an hour using 3 different lotions (one to heal, one to moisturize and one to seal), we see the dermatologist, i purged my house of anything she's allergic to so not even crumbs can cause her to react and we keep our house MUCH WARMER than i would like. She has a humidifier i clean and fill daily and She wears summer clothes in the winter to avoid her sweating or getting over heated. I work all day every day to ensure she isn't scratching, but half the time i can't stop myself from scratching when i'm itchy, let alone my 1.5 year old.

What does all this have to do with potty training, well the worst area is her diaper area. There's no airflow down there and with a diaper, onsies AND pants it gets very warm down there. We tried cloth diapers for a year and she but was so raw her skin peeled off in my hand one day. Then we tried disposables and she got excema so bad it looked like chemical burns on her butt. we tried cloth aloe wipes, fancy disposable wipes, spraying water with no wipes, baths multiple times a day, one bath a week, every lotion possible, new cloth diapers, old cloth diapers, stripping cloth diapers daily, 5 different brands and a variety of sized diapers.... no matter what her poor but was raw. She squats instead of sitting and i can't help but think it's because her butt ALWAYS hurts.

So our solution is to potty train. It's taking longer than normal, but she is young and doesn't have the ability to tell us when she needs to go. She's also a normal busy toddler who can't be inconvenienced by sitting on the toilet, there are things to do people!

I read every book, researched methods and even though they all say to wait a bit; however i don't have a choice. my daughter deserve to not have a fiery burning pain on her ass all day. We got some undies and a potty seat for Christmas for her and Jan 2 we started. She is doing REALLY REALLY well for a young kid who can't tell us when she needs to go.

Day 1: sat every 30 minutes, got a skittle for sitting and 4 or 5 when she peed on the toilet. No pants all day just bare but! 1 accident and it was while i was peeing on the potty (monkey see monkey do, i have to sneak my pees now or hold it until nap time). Dry after nap adn went on potty after nap! Successful but exhausting day one!

Day 2: ask about every hour and sit her when she says yes. Naked butt again irst half of day and underwear second half of the day. She had 2 big accidents, one she said "OOPS" as she started peeing and ran (while peeing) to the bathroom. BEST kind of accident because i know she is getting it! Second one again while i peed!

Day 3: she did great for Kel. in underwear and pant for the day and only had accidents for me, but went every time for Kel. He is amazing with her and very patient for this whole process, however i am the caregiver while he works and i kinda need her to pee for me! One accident in the car on our way to church but then went pee pee at grandma and grandpas!

Day 4: she was being an intentional stinker. she would look at me and pee on the floor while smiling and laughing. i know she gets it, but i also know she is my kid and thinks that's funny. she went every time on the potty for kel though!

Day 5: SNOW DAY! Kel is on potty duty all day hoping it clicks before i take over tomorrow. she gets it and goes on the potty 80% of the time when we are paying attention. I see this as win for only being 17 months old!

So i am sick and tired of hearing people's opinions, especially if they don't know the whole story. It's not easy but it's easier than watching my daughter in pain from her diapers.  I am doing a GREAT job as a mother and as her mother. i have taken on all the hurdles and challenges we've had and gone with it. she is a happy and spirited little girl who gets everything she wants or needs and knows it. I love her more than words can describe and i NO LONGER need the approval or opinions of other people. Since getting pregnant i have looked to others for approval or advice or acceptance and after all the crap i've heard lately about potty training my young toddler i feel NO MORE NEED for approval. I know i'm right and everyone can take their thoughts and opinions and keep them to themselves.

wow just typing that is liberating.

UPDATE: Day 6- NO accidents (2 poops in her pants, but that is a different battle for a different day, she does not have a regular poop schedule and i'm jsut happy she poops some days!). SUPER pumped! she consciously went on the toilet every time. you could actually see her controlling when to go and when to hold. 

Kisses for my tears!

So I knew going into january that it would be a very emotional month. Lots of people I know are having babies or announcing pregnancies and each one reminds me that my baby is in heaven. So today I cried!

Cecelia and I were cuddling and I reread some old blog posts to remember what 2013 brought and I lost it!

However as soon as my first tear rolled down my cheek my super sweet daughter wiped it away and no "no thanks mama."

Of course this made me cry harder and she responded by kissing each and every tear on my face.

Although ive had a lot of trials and rough times in the past year I have the best baby girl who is full of life and love. She is the greatest miracle ive ever seen and being her mom makes everything, no matter how hard, worth it.

I plan to distract myself this month with some awesome activities with chi chi, potty training (more on that later), my 25th birthday and  working!

2013 was a hard year but I pray 2014 bring joy and answered prayers!

Reflections and traditions

I have done TONS of reflecting and thinking lately. However i have a really hard time doing traditional "reflections" or any sort of meditation/quiet activity (the world is SHOCKED i can't sit quiet and still!). However i have found a couple of things lately that have really helped me reflect and actually focus on the season of Advent.

I have tried SO SO SO hard this advent season to take time everyday to reflect on Advent, the Meaning of Christams and all the wonders that came with Jesus' birth, however i am scatterbrained and often think about something for 2 second and move on. Instead of accepting my scatterbrained nature i have set "mental traps" all around my house and life to force me to think, reflect and pray throughout the day about Advent and Christmas. This has worked AMAZINGLY! I am shocked at how much i devote each day in thought, reflection or prayer with my reminders. they are usually small, short things but occasionally i'll spend 30-60 minutes in deep thought and prayer.

If youa re scatterbrained like me, or if life is so busy you barely remember to pee when you need to i hope some of these little tips help you:

1. 1. nativities! this seems obvious, yet i have talked to a lot of people who don't have one. I have 3 in my living room alone. One is large, one is crystal (and super pretty) and one is a play one for Cecelia (and yes i found Princess Jasmine and Mary Chatting next to baby Jesus the other day!). When i see my crystal one i take a moment to rediscover the BEAUTY of Christmas (physically and metaphorically). The concept of Jesus and his humility as the lights twinkly off the nativity. Then i see the large on i have and it's Mary and Joseph looking adoringly at Jesus and i am reminded of their Love for him, specifically all Mary went through just to bring him into the world (labor sucks, and she did it in a barn, at night after riding on a donkey). Finally i set up and pick up Cecelia's little play nativity 100X a day and every time i reflect one every person and animal and their role in the christmas season. 
2. My tree! I look a it and see ornaments from my childhood (all great happy memories) and then ones from each year as Kel and I have built our lives together (Cecelia already has more than Kel on the tree). I am reminded of how blessed i am and how many loved ones i have to share this season with. 
3. Music! I listen to mostly traditional Christmas Music (Lots of Josh Groban). I like the contemporary (and 90s) stuff but i can only take that in small doses. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the first Noel and What Child Is This. Those two songs are my favorite and listening to them is the BEST way for me to get into the season. They transport me to the first christmas and i feel like i am a part of it. BTW i have an overactive imagination so this all gets very vivid and amazing for me. 
4. My Kindle! i have an app that lets me read and reflect about saints and the readings that day. it's a very traditional way to reflect, but it works!

Finally today i had the the best/most emotional reflection of the Season. There's a song i have always known and loved but today the lyrics had me crying in the kitchen. "Breath of Heaven" by Amy Grant is Mary's version of Christmas. It literally tells her story and covers her fears of not just becoming a first time mother, but the Mother of God. I remember how much being 9 months pregnant SUCKS and the fears/uncertainties and general discomfort. And my kid wasn't God. Plus i didn't have to travel cross country on a donkey to give birth drug free in a barn. I struggled riding in a large smooth car to have a csection! It gave me lots to think about and ive never felt more in the christmas spirit.

This year we are also working on building some rock solid christmas traditions. Cecelia is old enough to participate in most. We do the usual "putting up the tree" and "hanging the stockings" but Kel and i really wanted more this year. So we talked and started some new ones.

• Santa? this was a huge debate for us. I'm not a fan of Santa. something about the man creeps me out. We def don't do pics with santa with Cecelia, but i was open to the idea of starting him with Cecelia. I really like the story and traditions of St. Nick (you know, the guy who inspired the whole santa concept). My sister doesn't do Santa with her kids but instead focuses on the story on Christmas, which i like. So Kel and i found a compromise for our family traditions.... St. Nick comes on Dec 6th (his feast day) and fills our stockings. We tell the story of St Nick and the history behind it. on Christmas Eve we open our presents from the kids and the kids open their presents from each other (as we have more kids). And on Christmas Day the stockings and gifts are from mom and dad. Its def all our own and this year Kel, Cecelia and i enjoyed our St. Nicholas Day Stockings and making and shopping for some gifts.

  

  new shoes and gift card to a mani/pedi! i'll take it!

  
  

  

  Kel's stocking had all the mini makings for his favorite drink (a long island iced tea)

  

  Cecelia got books, fruit, snacks, slippers, magna doodle (travel sized) and blocks!

  
  
  
  
   
• kel and i plan on enjoying Christmas Eve by wearing our pjs, making hot chocoloate, watching Christmas movies and making cinnamon rolls for Christmas Day. Throw in church and gift exchanges. kel has to work 2-11p on christmas eve and day but we plan on celebrating all morning then Cecelia and i can enjoy the evening. 
• Christmas Day i plan on spending the day in my pjs, opening gifts and eating yummy food. 
•  Most importantly we have started a Christmas Season Countdown book and an advent calendar. Cecelia really enjoys these books and activities. I want to make a few more for next year when she is old enough to participate a little bit more. 

So in a nutshell we are doing lots and lots to get ready for Christmas. It's a busy time of year but we are really enjoying it. Cecelia LOVES the tree and lights and activities. She even played in the snow a bit! We have focused this on advent, the REAL meaning of christmas and Cecelia. She's still super young but that girl absorbs everything like a sponge. i love watching her reactions to everything (we are going ot go driving around to see lights soon, i can't wait to see what she thinks) and seeing her really experience everything as a little girl. She has been the best hting to happen in our lives (aside form each other) and this year she has really been our hope and our light at the end of the tunnel. So we are celebrating that! i will post picutres as we go, until then here's a few of our snow adventure!

she was so goofy waddling around our yard!

sitting in the snow!

this is right after she ripped off her gloves and right before eating the snow! afte rthis she got cold hands and stopped liking it! 

we took the same picture int eh same spot last year! oh how things have changed in just one year!

dancing with daddy!

beautiful family photo! it took a few tried but Cecelia finally smiled!

this was her spot for awhile. She liked snow briefly then was ready to sit and watch!

 

Are there any traditions you do that you like or any you want to start?

i watch WAY too much TV!

Kel and i were making Christmas cards and there was quite the little conversation going on. First of all there are SO MANY different kinds of Christmas Cards. The choices we wanted to narrow it down a bit from a card with yearly updates or just a postcard. As we were talking i realized i COULD NOT positively do a card with yearly updates for multiple reasons:

1. everyone i would send one to i talk to regularly so therefore it would be useless to recap things
2. i feel it would have to be cutesy or rhyme and come on, no thanks
3. finally i realized we don't have good news right now to share and pass. Everything i want to share (Cecelia turning one, i got a part time job at a retail store, kel starts school in january, we finally got pictures hung on the wall) are not christmas card material OR have a really despressing memory behind them.

I recapped the year for us and although we have a lot to be thankful for and are truly blessed in so many ways, this year has been the worst and hardest of my life. I am truly a different person than i was in 2014 and have dealt with SO MUCH physically and emotionally and with my little family recapping it is exhausting. So we went with just a cute postcard and quick blessing to all.

So as i thought about my year, all we have been through and all that has happened i examined where we are at RIGHT NOW! For 5 months i feel like we have been sitting in the depression and despair that is our life. The past week we have started to rebuild and return to ourselves.

My part time job (which is great, i really enjoy it. it's not my dream job or a career i ever pictured but it's what i have now and for that i am grateful) has allowed us to pay bills (finally). That alone is a comfort that i can work with. It's not much but it's more than we had a month ago.

I am feeling better about my miscarriage. It still sucks, but i am on the tail end of the grieving process. I see baby stuff and instead of immediately crying, getting bitter or angry or shutting down i can look how cute it is and enjoy it. The fear of getting pregnant again is still very strong, but Kel and I are in no hurry to expand and honestly are just enjoying our goof ball one year old.  Three major things have happened in the past week that have really hit me and made me realized how to process, grieve and move on.

• The Voice- a tv show i keep up with. there was a song that one of the contestants sang dedicated to his wife. He said they have had it rough but come through it and things are changing and they made it. i BAWLED HISTERICALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i felt like this wa smy life he was talking about and i realized that kel and i have been thought SERIOUS stuff but there is a light in the tunnel and things are changing for the better. LOOK IT UP, BAWL YOUR FACE OFF, YOU WILL FEEL GREAT! 
• The Biggest Loser -(ok ok i watch a bit of TV, sue me). One of the contestants got to go home for a week and workout with Jillian. She talked about grieving and accepting the loss so you can move on. again i started BAWLING and realized she was so right and i learned to move on.
• Pandora.com- best music listening radio station there is. I have been listening to it at work and the music had been exactly what i needed. i've had so much time to reflect and really use the music to express my feelings.

Which is the final thing that has been singing in joy for once instead of pouting and throwing a pity party. Kel and i have been through a lot in the two years we have been married. We got married, got pregnant, moved into a house, had a baby, found out she has food allergies and relearned a lifestyle, got pregnant again, lost my job, lot the baby, cecelia turned one, got a job and now we are here. It's been one thing (good or bad) after the other and we have come through so much stronger than before. I feel like in two short years we have climbed mountains and swam across oceans together. It's been hard but we love each other so much more now than we ever thought possible. For at least two weeks we have stopped struggling to keep up with life and just started enjoying it.

I feel like a huge weight ahs been lifted of my shoulders, and in perfect time. Advent is here and i am starting this season on a new leaf. It's a perfect time to reflect, pray, grown and anticipate with joy the birht of Jesus, and for once i am doing all of these. I am content and at peace with life and instead of dwelling on the bad i am looking forward to good things to come.

i know a lot of people struggling out there right, crazy things happen. They have my prayers and i pray that they find peace like i did and let this season heal their hearts and lift their worries.

Baby face!

So my little girl is not so little anymore. She has lost all her baby fat and is now a toddler. I'm really liking this new phase, she is active and mobile and INCREDIBLY independent. I have never seen so much spunk, attitude and curiosity in one little girl (then again i never saw myself as a child and i'm pretty sure i was the exact same way).  She is SO goofy and funny.

i could honestly brag and talk about my no-longer-a-baby girl all day. I'm sure that would get old though and not everyone would enjoy that as much as me.

So things have been crazy around here. i picked up a part time seasonal job at a retail store that i am a big fan of. Between that and Cecelia my plate is full.

Poor Chi Chi (that's the nickname that has been adopted for her) has been sick. It's thrown all of us off and even gotten me sick too! The poor baby has enough to fight off daily with her allergies being crazy sensitive. When she gets sick (as we found out) her body is unable to fight of sickness and allergies at the same time. So as a result she has had hives for a week now that wont go down and benedryl wont help relieve. Also, after talking with the doctor he explained that Cecelia will have issues other kids dont when she is sick. because he immune system is ALWAYS running half speed or more to fight off her allergies when she gets sick she is likely to get sicker faster than the average kiddo. On top of getting sick quickly her small common colds can cause fever, rash, itchy skin and infections becuase it spurs allergic reactions.

So cecelia has two ear infections and was starting to form bronchitis. normally the dr. would have just given her something for the ear infections but since she is likely to get sicker faster he didn't want it to turn into pneumonia. So she got antiobiotics for all three infections.

She is still fighting it, but at least her skin has cleared up. And the illness has made her super sleepy and cuddly. i love the cuddles but i hate getting them because she is sick.

So yeah, i work at 4 or 5 am 2-3 times a week, have a sick baby who wants constant attention and a house that is being deep cleaned to help sick-o girls immune system.

is it next week yet?