Getting the hang of this...

So my baby girl is now two weeks old and here are how things are going:

• things are finally falling into a routine (yes i said FINALLY because things have not been routine around here for MONTHS and i am going NUTS without any sort of organizational pattern or daily goals!). Cecelia is doing very well and it's so much fun to watch her grow. 
• My little baby that came home two weeks ago is already in her 0-3 month clothes. This is a good things as she only had about 10 newborn outfits and she peed through about 8 a day and with the infant cloth diapers being EXACTLY enough for one day we were having issues keeping up with laundry. But now she has a huge supply of 0-3 month and 3 month clothes to get her through as long as she needs to! 
•  Also her belly button fell off at EXACTLY two weeks old. this is a bit early, but it was natural and now we can do full baths! she LOVES sitting in the warm water and had a blast last night. (Yes she told me so herself)
• We started her on 2 bottles a day. She breastfeeds the rest of the day but since i go back to work in 3 1/2 weeks we really needed to make sure she could take bottles early so that later it's a no brainier for her.  Also i have been pumping and storing and since we are already almost out of storage space in the freezer (true story) we decided to start bottles early! She takes them AMAZINGLY! it took a few days to solve some spit up/vomit issues with her eating too fast, but so far no confusion or issues as long as she gets fed when she is ready. And since she takes a paci so well we have been able to postpone and schedule her feedings to every two-three hours.
• She SLEEPS! i know all newborns sleep a ton right away the first few weeks, but she is sleeping at nights. we have her nightly routine down where she gets a bath from daddy, changed and lotion, a bottle from daddy and daddy cuddle time then off to bed (while mommy can relax for an hour). she sleeps until 1-2 am, wakes up to change and eat and sleeps again until 6-7am. She has done this for a week now and its working great for all of us! She even has nap times we can predict everyday! 

So overall things are much better than i expected. I am recovering a little bit more each day with a little less pain meds. Every now and then i will get a set back (something as small as a headache) where i just don't function, but overall i am getting a handle on things. I have had some major and minor breakdowns. after my first night by myself while kel was at work i was emotionally unstable and called in reinforcements. Other times kel has had to take Cecelia for an extra diaper change because i can't handle it, but overall i am doing much better emotionally than ANYONE (myself included) thought i would. I am actually more stable emotionally than i was my last 3 weeks of pregnancy. The pain is manageable and i am starting to help around the house piece by piece (this week i did laundry and got announcements and thanks yous done while still taking at least one outing everyday).

The only problem i have is reminding myself to take baby steps and that i wont just be recovered in one day and that it is ok to cry and need help and have a messy house.

One little happy family!

She's HERE! she got here one week ago! she is perfect and wonderful. If you want details on HOW she got here check out Her Story (scroll to the bottom and skip the gory details for the fun birth announcement info!). Beware it is long until then i have some fun pictures of her first week in our little family of three. She is so beautiful and already i don't know what life was like without her. She is my whole word!

 within an hour after being born!

 first smiles for mamma!

 family photo ready to go HOME and start our lives together with her!

playing at home! 

 chillin with daddy... she is his little princess

not a fan of her first bath, but she likes them now

 TOO BEAUTIFUL! and yes, she is awake A LOT for an infant!

 my favorite outfit so far!

 Daddy wearing her and doing chores! these two melt my heart!

her princess outfit! such a peanut!

So she is great, so tiny and perfect. i love showing her off and my family can't get enough of her. she LOVES to cuddle and will cuddle with anyone anytime anywhere. Honestly she is a perfect baby and i can't describe how much love and joy she brings to my life, even at 2am when i am awake feeding her! i get excited to wake up with her because i miss her when she's down!

As for me, i am recovering. To me it feels slow but the doctor assured me it is much faster than most women. i have a hard time sitting up when i am laying flat, but other than that i am moving great as long as i keep up on my pain meds! i got my staples out today adn tomorrow is my first night alone while daddy is at work, but i am not sure if i am ready to eb alone yet so my mom might have to come help! 

My family and friends are amazing bringing up food and staying with me while Kel is at work on overnights and changing diapers and cleaning the house. i honestly would not have survived this week physically or emotionally if it wasn't for my AMAZING friends and family! this little baby girl is spoiled and blessed more than she will ever know!

frustrations

So today might be a vent type blog today as i am frustrated! So i had the past 5 days off work. it was nice, i got some things done (DMV, bought a new car, got insurance taken care of, cleaned, finished what was needed in baby's room, shopped, etc) but mostly just lounged! this was very needed as i have been feeling like complete crap the past few days. Yesterday i literally woke up, went to church (didn't even shower) and then went home and laid in bed ALL day! The rest was obviously needed. But today i had two options: have a baby or go to work- work won

So i go to work and realize that i left at a REALLY bad time (but honestly is there ever a good time for a manager to leave work for vacation days?). The worst part is there is someone else covering it all for me. Since we couldn't put an exact date on my maternity leave we used my vacations days to have someone take over so that in the event that i didn't come back form vacation and went straight on leave everything was handled. Smart move, until i actually came back from vacation! Me going into work really throws things into confusion because i am not supposed to be dealing with problems but i can't just not handle the problems when i know about them, etc etc.

So after only one hour at work i get a call from my husband- he has a flat tire. So i have to leave work to go and get him from the middle of a cornfield (known as Gridley) and figure this out since we DEFINITELY can't afford to get a new tire today. Not even halfway there and the ONLY road to get there (otherwise it's an additional 20 minutes) is closed. While on the phone Kel says that this might be God's way of saying just buy the new tire, go home and see what happens. So i turn around and go home while he just buys a new tire and heads home.

And we wait! i know what needs to get done tonight at work but it all has to wait until this evening when staff and people get home anyway, so i am waiting. waiting for my husband to come home, waiting to see IF we overdraft (literally our savings is within $$ of the cost of the new tire- so glad we had what little savings we did), waiting for baby to decided to come, waiting to get work done, just waiting.

I am REALLY bad at waiting.