frustrations

So today might be a vent type blog today as i am frustrated! So i had the past 5 days off work. it was nice, i got some things done (DMV, bought a new car, got insurance taken care of, cleaned, finished what was needed in baby's room, shopped, etc) but mostly just lounged! this was very needed as i have been feeling like complete crap the past few days. Yesterday i literally woke up, went to church (didn't even shower) and then went home and laid in bed ALL day! The rest was obviously needed. But today i had two options: have a baby or go to work- work won

So i go to work and realize that i left at a REALLY bad time (but honestly is there ever a good time for a manager to leave work for vacation days?). The worst part is there is someone else covering it all for me. Since we couldn't put an exact date on my maternity leave we used my vacations days to have someone take over so that in the event that i didn't come back form vacation and went straight on leave everything was handled. Smart move, until i actually came back from vacation! Me going into work really throws things into confusion because i am not supposed to be dealing with problems but i can't just not handle the problems when i know about them, etc etc.

So after only one hour at work i get a call from my husband- he has a flat tire. So i have to leave work to go and get him from the middle of a cornfield (known as Gridley) and figure this out since we DEFINITELY can't afford to get a new tire today. Not even halfway there and the ONLY road to get there (otherwise it's an additional 20 minutes) is closed. While on the phone Kel says that this might be God's way of saying just buy the new tire, go home and see what happens. So i turn around and go home while he just buys a new tire and heads home.

And we wait! i know what needs to get done tonight at work but it all has to wait until this evening when staff and people get home anyway, so i am waiting. waiting for my husband to come home, waiting to see IF we overdraft (literally our savings is within $$ of the cost of the new tire- so glad we had what little savings we did), waiting for baby to decided to come, waiting to get work done, just waiting.

I am REALLY bad at waiting.