Feeling proud!

So, this week i have reached a all new personal best on a couple of things, and i am so excited about it!

First, i have worked out 5 times since tuesday. Kel and i have even used up our date time to swim and workout together. I have developed my own personal workouts and meal plan  and it is going very well in just one week. i did all the research, all the nutritional facts, and all the work to create it! On top of that i have stuck with it for a week. For those of you who don't know me i usually make it about 3 days before giving up and quitting.

Also, not only am i working hard to keep up with my workouts, i have acutally been workin gon my running. today i ran 1/2 a mile in 2 seperate 1/4 mile incriments. I know to a lot of people that is nothing, but for me and all i have been through this is the biggest milestone i could have ever hoped to wish in my first week. I am not pushing things, and not ever running every day! instead i am working hard to bring myself up to the point wher ei can run a 5k without injury. I have always though running was something for everyone else, but i am so pumped that i can run 1/2 a mile wiht no injury i can't help but aim high (and yes a 5k is high for me, the girls who can't run without injury) !

So thanks for all the people who are encouraging me..... it means a lot every time i here "good work" or "i'm proud!" i am past the point of caring if i loose any weight, i just want to feel and look good everyday!

So i was origionally going to put up an emo post about how much i hate doctors.... instead i am going to post a few updates on how things are going...

Wedding planning is good!
Kel is getting his annulment thing take care of, we will know by the end of february hopefully.
Once that goes through we start our pre marriage classes, etc.
School is good. it's already a lot of work and i am SO ready to be done, but it is not to horrible.
I am currently crossing my fingers that an in twn internship is available, i find out this week!
Kel had an interview and we are super pumped that it went well!

So pretty much, life is the same, i am still uncertain about a lot, but i am handling the stress amazingly for me, so i am pretty excited and proud. 

Should i stay or should i go?

So, my life is changing and it is all amazing. This past week and the next couple of weeks i will be spending most of my free time applying for internships. Now i am just applying and it is there is no definite answer about which internships i will actually get. But all the ones that i am applying for are ones that i would love to have, and hopefully can lead into a full time career type job for me. However, i am having a big dilema...

Do i stay in/around Bloomington-Normal near my family, my conformt zone, my son-to-be nephew, or do i move to a new place and see if i can find a way for myself there?


So my solution is to apply to as many stated as possible and as many places in Bloomington-Normal as possible. the result will be whoever wants me and has the most ot offer me will get me, and from there the rest of my life will fall into place.

I am so fortunate for all the support my family and friends have given me. i am the most thankful for my fiance who will move where i need to go and who is the most supportive person on earth! Keep looking for updates as i figure out where i will end up!

Just Keep Swimming...

Some roads have speed bumps to help slow people down. I have learned in my life that sometimes God gives you speed bumps, and they aren't always to slow you down. They help you learn lessons, grow patience, overcome adversity, and you never know what it is until you hit the brakes, ride on over it, and continue to your final destination. Well, Kel and I hit a speed bump in wedding planning, and we are slowing down to overcome it...

As most people know (in fact everyone except his grandma knows) this is not going to be Kel's first marriage. When he was in the navy (i am posting this with his permission btw) Kel married a girl (i promise to be polite about my feelings toward her, so i will just call her girl instead of names i really think about her) after dating for two month. They were married so that if he died she would get all of his money. The were married for 6 month before getting divorced and in this time she cheated on him with 7 guys (that he knows of) and even got pregnant by another guy (as the paternity test showed) while married to Kel. So the divorce was finalized and less than a year later he was baptized as a Christian, turned to God and that's when he met me. The rest is history, we fell in love fast, got engaged and have spent a year planning the wedding while i finished school. We decided to get rolling on wedding plans so that if I had an out of town internship this summer we would not be stressed for time close to the wedding. Glad we started early!

Yesterday we went in to talk to the priest about wedding materials. We found out that his divorce must be approved/annulled/taken care of by the Catholic church in order for both of us to be married in the Catholic Church. It gets especially complicated because Kel is not catholic and I am. There has been conversations about Kel joining the catholic church, and he is currently studying this option. This whole matter makes life more complicated and the ability for us to get married in the church that i grew up is under debate.

Now for all the other wedding details we are set. We have the DJ, the Florist, the reception hall, meal, place settings, car rides, dress, bridesmaids dresses, tuxes, cake, invitations, registry, guest list, hair appointments, rehearsal dinner and finances all solved. We are intending to send out save the dates soon, and because of this we have to reevaluate everything. October 22nd is not as far away as it used to be and time is ticking as i type this. I WILL be getting married on October 22nd, but things have to be settled, prayed about, taken care of and reset for this to happen. Questions about Catholicism, marriage, counseling, and all other aspects have to be answered and approval has to be gotten in order for me to have my traditional, catholic dream wedding. It would truly break my heart to not be married in the Catholic church, but it would kill me to not be married at all. So I ask for prayers and understanding as Kel and I embark on the journey of undoing his mistakes.

In no way is there blame or distrust or any negative feeling towards Kel (the navy-yes, GIRL-yes, Kel-no). We have all done stupid things and he has paid for his, literally. I have known about his previous marriage since before we were dating and I have accepted it and we have grown because of it. However, we are dealing with it now as a couple. This is just proof of how much Kel and I are willing to go through to be with each other. God is a part of our life and we are literally fighting to have Kel and Myself be married before God and the Church. Just because we are having technical problems with being married in the Church does not mean we are having problems with our Faiths or with God. We are as faithful as we have ever been, constantly growing in God's Love, and following the path he has set up for us, individually and together.

This is a speed hump, and some day I will look back and know the reason God has put this in our life.

the first EPIC FAIL of 2011

i did a typical "sara" thing yesterday...

For the entirety of Christmas Break i have been thinking that i have until January 17th until i go back to school. i have successfully told myself that i will have one extra week to get things done. Starting finals week i have been picking up extra work hours CONSTANTLY and since the school-agers that i normal work with start school this week i thought that i would have a whole week of short work hours to get things done.

While talking with a friend i was told that school starts ON JANUARY 10TH! my shock was enough to make anyone schmitt their pants. After frantic "No WAYS" and looking it up online i realized that my one week of getting caught up on things was really going to be a week of no sleep and changing schedule, and OH is my schedule changing.


I was intending to ease myself into my schedule, i do not receive change well at all, i like things to stay as they are until I am ready but life doesn't work like that. So i was hoping i could gradually introduce my schedule changes week by week, starting with this week introducing the new fitness class i will be taking and babysitting jobs i have received, next week i would add school and work schedule changes, and the week after i would add homework. After that i have my nephew coming, and although this does not impact my daily schedule it 100% dramatically impacts my life and is a huge (but very GOOD) life change in my family dynamic.  By mid february i was supposed to be adjusted to the new changes in my life.

Instead, because i did not know when school started, i found out yesterday that this week i have to finish everything i had intended to do (but haven't yet) over break, and then next week by life goes into chaos!

wow... 2011, please slow down already, it's a lot to take in and i am not keeping up!