Epiphany -not just the church i am getting married in

Today i had a bit of an Epiphany! More like 4 or 5 Epiphanies! First of all is i am so proud of myself and all my accomplishments in life (she says humbly)! Not only have a graduated college with two degrees in less time than most people graduate with one, i have done so with minimal debt (enough for me and my parents to be stressed out but not enough to damage the rest of my life). I have never faltered from school all the while overcoming SEVERE physical obstacles. This never stopped me and i never stopped school. Now my Epiphany moment today was when i realized that although this is standard for my family, not everyone can say this and in fact many people can't even dream about this. i have drive and dreams, i have goals and ambitions, and most of all i have an education that can never be taken away from me. I will some day be able to look at my children and say i hope they get to feel like this, becuase there is no greater feeling than knowing i have a safety net, an education, to fall back on and i have something that no force of life can take from me.

Today i also realized that although i have made mistakes in my life, i have only made mistakes that i can grow and learn from. (and here's the word of thanks to my parents for letting me make mistakes, but teaching me to not make the wrong ones) I am not gonna lie, i have done stupid stuff. I have rebelled, i have had to much ot drink,  i had bad relationships, i dated all the wrong guys, i failed a class, i slept through a final, i lost friends, i made some bad friends, i lost my religion (and thankfully found it again), i fell off a curb, i blew my money.... but i never lost sight of who i was or who i wanted to be. i kept true to myself and this is again something that not everyone can say. i learned a lot of lessons, and i have so many more to learn, but every single experience i have had to this day, good and bad, i do not regret and i would never take them back if given the chance. they have made me who i am and i am very happy with who i am.

next, i had the biggest Epiphany of the day (yeah busy day for my brain right?) and that is that no matter what happens in my life i will never be alone! I know my family is always there for me, but even more than that i know that i will have Kel. Through good, bad, sickness, health, and every obscure ailment in between he will be by my side. i never in a million years would have seen myself as the corny head over heals in love person, but i am. everyday i wake up excited to see kel. i have never gone to bed angry with him. since we started dating i have never doubted what we have. We started dating and it was quickly that we fell for each other. this used to scare me. i am not a believer, i know that love takes time, effort and more self control that i thought i had. however, i am a believer that love is possible. Without each other it is impossible (even for my over active imagination) to see where we would have been as individuals.Every day i love him more than the first day, and every day i am more and more certain that spending the rest of my life with him will be the easiest choice i ever make. There have been so many signs from God and blessings that October 22nd, 2011 is meant to be that i just take relief in how much God has had a hand in my life, and how i finally learned to let Him put His hand in and change my life. I am so happy that Kel and I are starting our lives together in less than 6 months. After that we will be starting a family, raising our family and and watching it grow! These next six months are going to be long and stressful. They already are getting more and more loaded by the day, but it is all worth it at the end when i will get to go home with my husband and we can say that out life together started with faith, hope, and the greatest of all LOVE!

Oh and special props to my awesome husband-to-be for going through RCIA, recieving confirmation and Holy Eucharist and becoming a part of the catholic church. Definately my best Easter ever and a feeling of joy i will never forget!