Wow: life just keeps on happening!

So just when i thought life would slow down things get crazy again! i have resigned to the fact that things will never settle down. Here are the updates, followed by all the thoughts and emotions i have been dealing with!

We are moved into the new house. things are AWESOME in the house and we LOVE it! We still have to put the basement together but everything else is 100% moved in. we are working on routines and habits right now so that upkeep is easy enough. Last night Kel and i cooked a romantic dinner together and sat down and talked. This is the first "date" we have had in forever where one of us was not utterly preoccupied by outside sources. We set our cell phones far away, lit some candles and cooked a DELICIOUS meal together! I didn't realize how much i miss our weekly date nights until last night. We finally got to talk about a lot of things, old and new and we both are in such good places!

Next thing happening is work. I am fully int eh swing of things and done with training, and although it's long (read odd and inconsistent) hours everyday i LOVE it! I did have to explain to someone that i can LOVE my job and still be EXHAUSTED and ready for a day off at the same time. However i am keeping up and for once in my life it is nice to go home at the end of the day and have nothing to do aside from read, sleep and a few household chores (although i will admit Kel stays on top of those for me! i'm so lucky). I love work, it's hard, demanding, busy and it helps people every day! i never get bored or think i have nothing to do and that is how i'd prefer it.

My pregnancy is getting better. my body has finally stopped rejecting food.  I am not eating the amount i should be yet (i relearning how to eat for one small baby, let alone eating for me plus that baby) but i am eating and not getting sick! i actually enjoyed a meal for the first time last night! And i get hungry every day! I never thought i would MISS being hungry! I am getting big in the stomach and smaller everywhere else, but baby is healthy and growing! total i have lost 35 pounds since my wedding day and i have gained 0 back, but we are hoping i can gain a few pounds before my next doctor's appointment so we don't have to discuss my "options" like the doctor has threatened.

I miss my little sister. i really want her back so i can hang out with her! i feel like she's going to die of shock when she sees me for the first time when she's back! i'm getting bigger everyday and it's weird for me to see, i can't imagine what it will look like for her after 5 months!

Also my sister and her husband have been chosen at adoptive parents again. This time for a little baby boy. This is really exciting and hopefully in the next week (baby is due on April 3rd) I will have exciting news to post. I am not going to lie i am very nervous about everything, excited but nervous. It's very very weird for me to be pregnant and to know that there will be a baby and a general time-frame of when and to everyday experience the baby and watch her grow versus my niece and maybe nephew kinds just come out of nowhere. These are two such different stories and two completely different ways for our family to grow, both good and miraculous, i just can't help but be overwhelmed with all the different emotions that come with BOTH situations. It has been emotional for me, seeing my sister not have to be so sick, not being in constant discomfort and pain yet she still will get to bring home this little baby boy at the end of it all. I understand the emotions behind fearing another fall through, but to me they are the same ones i have when i think of all the things that could go wrong with my pregnancy, especially considering the doctor's current "watchful" eye on me right now. Neither one is set in stone and only God knows what will happen, but i do get a twinge of jealousy that my sister doesn't have to worry about c-sections and labor and epidurals but she still gets to bring home a miracle!I am really excited though and if I'm being totally honest the timing of this is perfect. If it was any much closer to August i would be a little on edge about a lot of things, but 4 months apart is close enough to be close knit cousins and far apart that it's all extra exciting! Plus this way comparing kids and birthday celebrations and things like that wont conflict.Maybe that's just the third child in me wanting my baby girl to have her own attention and thunder. I've accepted i will never get attention again but it would drive me nuts to constantly have people hold baby girl up to someone else!

Anyway life i crazy and good! I have more emotions than i ever thought possible. Poor Kel can't keep up! There's a lot more to post about, but those will have to wait for another day!