My love/hate relationship with Murphey's Law!

If i had to describe myself in two words i would say: spastic and resilient. Two very loaded words that luckily work very well together. My whole life my spastic personality has led to mishaps, mistakes, heartbreak, and general problems, but my resilience has meant that these problems make me stronger and better because of them. Because of this odd combination of qualities i have developed a love/hate relationship with Murphey's Law... Whatever CAN go wrong in my life WILL go wrong! This is turns has led me to believe that everything happens or a reason, and this reason is all part of God's Plan.

Now, i have had many minor setbacks in my life, i once failed a class, and i lost a dear old friend of mine for no obvious reasons, i had my first love, and i lost my first love. these are all little things that in the end made me stronger. The reason i bring up this concept, is to help others understand the relationship i have with my fiance. I intend to update people on my wedding plans, but i feel that most people are more excited about my wedding than the marriage i will have. My father once told me that it's not about the wedding at all, but instead about the preparations made to live two lives, together. This never really sunk in until i was talking to a friend at Starbucks ( : P ) today and she was genuinely interested in mine and Kel's relationship and how WE were preparing for the wedding. I was so relieved to have a friend who didn't care about the details of the ceremony as much as she cared about the amount of planning we have put into our future together.

Now, what does this have to do with my spastic and resilient nature. Kel and i have only been together for 1 and 1/2 years.... we were together for 7 months and engaged for 10. we have another 10 months to go before the wedding. I will admit this is not a whole lot of time. A lot of young couple i know have been together for 5+, and i wont hit that until my 3rd wedding anniversary. I have people ask me every week how am i sure that i want to get married, i'm 21, just graduating college and have SO much life to live. My answer to them is always the same... i do have so much life to live, and i don't want to live it without Kel. What i need people to understand, in the 7 months before we got engaged we had been literally stalked my Murphey's Law. I am convinced that every thing possible thing that COULD have broken us up did actually happen, but it never DID break us up. Bad things from both our pasts came up, sickness, injury, pain, religion, ex's, alcohol, and every other negative thing that has impacted my life, effected Kel and i in our first 6 months together. Because of these negative things, we have opened lines of communication, trust, faith, hope and the greatest of all LOVE within our lives.

Yes, Kel and i fight like cats and dogs sometimes. We are both stubborn and bull headed. Because of these qualities we have mastered the art for of compromise. No matter how much he frustrates me, or how much i want to be a "cutsie" couple, i love Kel and the Independence he allows me in our relationship. While some women get married they not only change their name, but they change their hopes, dreams, and overall positive qualities, i know for a fact that Kel will ever only ask me to change my name because it is my hopes and dreams and major attitude that he loves about me.

So although i am spastic and i this tends to lead to me falling off curbs and having reconstructive foot surgery, or worse, i always come back better and stronger. Kel and i met for a reason, and it is God's plan that we spend forever getting to know and love each other a little more each day. The next times someone asks me why i am getting married so young, i am going to want to slap them in the face... instead i will one smile and tell them to read this. 7 months is not a long time, and yes kel and i are young, but we have more than most people, and for that Murphey can stalk us all he wants because we aren't going anywhere!

Don't worry, these are not going to all be EMO posts! i have a lot of life plans i want to update people on, and this is where i am going to do them!