Roller coaster

Warning: I am typing this on my break on my phone so expect more typos than usual and odd words that shouldn't be there because of autocorrect.

Life has been a cliche roller coaster. I have some amazing positive thing going on and they're what get me through each day.

1. My baby girl is 9 month old. She is crawling and standing, right on developmental track. She is so cute and everyday giggles and smiles when I hold her. My world literally revolves around her.

2. My husband has started a new job and I am so proud of him and all his hard work. Also I love my job and its so fulfilling.

3. One of my best friends is getting married in a week. I am in the wedding and am so excited for it
I can't wait to have a married friend to talk with.

4. A lot of my other close friends (4) are getting married this year. It is gonna be a fun year!

However I find that lately I have hit some major speed bumps in life that have kept me overwhelmed and distracted me from all the positives.

1. Cecelia we found out has some Major food allergies. She has two minor allergies to eggs and peanuts. These are easy to avoid and not very major lifestyle change. However she has severe allergies to peas (legumes and chickpeas) and... Soy. The soy is proving to be the most difficult thing I could ever imagined avoiding. There is soy in every processed food (I challenge you to go 3 days soy free). We have to make everything from scratch, double and triple check every ingredient on ever food label and we are forced to buy mostly organ  or vegan options (which are SUPER expensive).The worst is her allergy is so severe if you touch her with A soy product she gets horrible hives and if she eats it her throat will swell shut. She has had an outbreak at least one to two times a week, we have epi pens on hand at all times and we have seen the doctor a minimum off once a week for the past month because of this and other health issues. Cooking is getting a bit easier thanks to practice, but it Is so expensive and time consuming I can't help but stress and worry constantly.

2. 2 parents Working 40-50 hours a week each with unconventional hours is taking its toll. Cleaning and laundry are on a back burner and I can't stand it. Not to mention dates (as if) or time together. We are desperate for time and a bit of cash for just the two of us. I miss my husband :(

3. Money. There's never enough. These extra doctor bills and organic/vegan grocery trips plus the wonderful weddings (I am super pumped but to be honest it all adds up... And fast. Gifts, showers, bachlorette parties, dresses, nails, time off.... Holy moly)  are all adding up!

Overall I should not be complaining. I have such an amazing support group of family and friends, a roof, a job and a beautiful little family. However instead 50% of my day trying to figure out how to make it through the week with food (that won't kill my kid) on the table and gas in the car  the other 50% working myself silly. I need some sort of relief and there is none in sight. *sigh*