"Just because you have the emotional capacity of a teaspoon"- Hermione Granger

So today has been an emotional day! It is official, my year of dramatic life changes has started today. Most of you know what i am talking about, but for the discretion of my family the rest of you will have to wait until the end of the week to know what started the "time of change" as Kel and i call it. The point is i do not handle change well at all, in fact it leads to breakdowns and emotional problems. However good the change is i can't let go of the fact that things will never be like they were! I am learning quick to work with this, but it's coming hard.

However, i am very excited about the events in my life that are causing the change and i look forward to telling everyone about how amazing my life is and how awesome it's going to be through thick, thin, and just plain different.

So, since i can't just post something this short, i have a cute story for you all. today was a roller coaster! most of the day i spent optimistic and excited, while a good portion was also spent crying and praying and worrying. With school, my last first tests of the semester, and things being busier than ever this week i was at an all time low emotionally. For this, Kel had to pay. i have a nasty habit of taking out my emotions on Kel, and normally he puts me in my place and helps me through it. today instead we argued and fought until we were both so tired we gave up with each other. We talked things through, saw where we went wrong, and solved the problems.

So i went to work as usual, although still emotional. From there Kel picked me up and took me to my girl's night that i have every Monday night. Me and some girlfriends take turns cooking for each other and watch the Bachelor and Castle together every Monday. I was excited about my three hours of relax time and time where Kel and i could relax and cool off! So while I was at girl's night Kel set up an elaborate plan to make me feel like a million dollars.

He picked me up and dropped me off at my apartment. he stopped in for a quick conversations. When i opened my bedroom door, there was candle light, a bottle of wine (chilling on snow- not ice- in a bucket on the floor) a clean room and Hershey kisses scattered around the room. Along with this my room was clean, laundry done, and we watched a movie very significant to us (different story at a different post). Cutest, sweetest, most amazing thing i could have ever asked for. i was completely surprised and love that he is so thoughtful and will do whatever it take to make me the happiest girl alive!